May 2006 Archives
Well today was the big day. The big 3-0. Did not really do anything special went to work came home has some dinner. Then I was feeling kind of tired so I took a nap. When I woke up had a message. Also some of my friends sent me Happy Birthday wishes last night by text after 1 am. Not a big deal cause I was awake but I was in bed almost sleep. Somewhere in the middle. I am usually awake then but I did have to work at 8 am so I was trying to be good and go to sleep. Anyhow we will be partying it up next Monday for the birthday it just worked out better that way. I did get some cool stuff for my b-day. Got the new James Blunt cd I wanted. The new super mario brothers for my DS. 2 new Yankee candles and the book called Marley and me. My hubby got me all those. Also got some b-day money $75 bucks woo hoo. So I bought myself the new sims expansion pack and well the rest I will spend when I find something I want. My mom has me some stuff but I have to get over to her house to get it. My aunt took me out to dinner on Friday. So it's been a good b-day.
Well this evening my mom calls me to tell me on my birthday that my Uncle has cancer. Like she coulda waited another day but noooooooo. This is the same uncle who is married to my aunt that has breast cancer again. I guess he has had it for awhile now but my aunt just informed her. I am guessing maybe he did not want to tell anyone? Anyhow everytime I talk to my mom she is talking about death or when she dies or this or that or so and so looks bad and this is not good etc. I mean I know these things happen and are gonna happen. Do we need to talk about it everytime we do have a conversation?? I mean wtf? I don't want to talk to her half the time because it always goes to something morbid if you will. Anyhow back to my uncle I guess he has had it awhile and decided to not have anything done about it. So I don't know how long he will be around now. It's depressing. Such is life though. Anyways I am done ranting now. So until next time... If you have depressing news I don't really want to know about it right now. Also don't go telling people sad shit on their birthday.
Well in less than a week I will be 30. Wow hard for me to believe. I certainly don't feel like I am 30. I suppose that is a good thing. Not many people believe it eithier. That is a good thing too. Hopefully I am saying the same shit when I am turning 40. Wow in ten years I will be considered over the hill. Never thought these days would come. It's cool though. I am not stressing about it like some people I know have. I also didn't think this is where I would be in life eithier but than again I don't worry to much about the future. I mean life is journey and most of the time it blows but I go through it day to day to see what's gonna happen next. There are great things in life and it's usually the little things that bring you the most happiness.
Been looking at some houses online. I am just not into it right now. Gives me a headache and I know we have some time left here. I do hope to find something reasonable we can both love and or at least like and live with. I am sure we will just going to take some time. It's amazing to me in a matter of months how life can change. I know it can all change in a day. I am just ready to get out of this house because as much as I do love it and all I loathe it just the same. It's been a big mess for awhile now and something has to change and that's what we are doing. I love it because it was new and updated compared to some homes we looked at. We were able to choose everything from our cabinets to the door handles, carpet color, kitchen tile, bathroom tile, heck even our outlet cover colors. Things that get on my nerves are the water never gets really hot in the winter but is way to hot in the summer. Yeah we have tried adjusting the temperature. Does not work. Also paying way to much for it, Um it's caused many financial hardships. This house is going to change my whole life as I know it right now here really soon. I can accept that though. I am ready for some changes. I am tired of working to just pay a house payment. Never having any real cash to spend just because. Sure I could go charge whatever I wanted but that to is going to change. Never being able to afford a vacation to somewhere other than PA to visit with the family. In all reality it's to big of a house for just us and the dogs. Way to much to clean. There are many other loves and hates but the hates so outway the loves. When you get down to it all in the end It's only a house. I am sure I will find one I can love and hate again but maybe this time around go the smart route and have much more love.
My Aunt and Uncle are here from Florida visitng. My Uncle is not doing so hot or looking so good so my mom tells me. They stay at her house and I hooked up with mom and my aunt tonight for a late dinner. I will see my uncle sometime this week. My aunt wants to take me out to eat for my birthday. She hopes he will feel well enough to go along. Also this week my Aunt who lives in Newark had to have surgery to have her right breast removed. I feel so bad for her. It was five years ago this month she had to have her left one removed. She was unable to get a implant because the cancer was so far into her lymphnodes and up under her arm they thought it about impossible not to mention not a good idea. So she got a prothesis. I thought she went through all of it beautifully. She was positive she was not afraid to talk about it or to show if you wanted to see and understand. I can only hope that I would be able to hold up that way under such circumstances. She has been in my prayers since I found out and I hope that she goes through this whole ordeal again as well as she did last time. I am not saying it was easy or anything but she did so well. As well as can be expected with cancer. With losing a part of you that has pretty much always been there. She is a role model in how she handled it all. I suppose I need to tell her this and someday I plan to do just that. I hope that she kicks cancers ass once again. She took her sisters youngest daughter she was about 5 or 6 years old because her sister had developed MS and she has been raising her ever since. She did this when she was nearing retirement after her own son was long gone. She helped oversee her sisters care. She is about to be 15 and Well my aunt needs to be here to see her through to her graduation and onto the rest of her life. It's just scray to me how many people are now getting this disease. It's nice to know though how more mainstream it has become within the public eye. Much more awareness and if you catch it early you have a fighting chance.
I have lots of things on my mind lately and I have been trying to deal the best I can. I have alot on my plate right now but I know it could be so much worse. I am thankful for the things I do have and that I am comfortable and warm at night. That I have a good core behind me like my mom and husband and some friends. I have my 3 four legged babies and they are always at the door so happy to see me come home. I have my health which is not perfect but again I am better off than lots of people out there. For all that and many more things I am thankful.
Just wanted to take a minute to say thanks to all the mothers out there who do their job and do it well.
Last week I watched the Soprano's and it was good. It reminded me of some of the past seasons of the show. Finally, but of course the season is almost over. I just hope the final 7 episodes are so kick ass it's not funny. Had invemtory last Sunday that went pretty well. Some things could have been better like our hole count. It kills me though the previous 2 trucks before the last one we were to get before inventory were pretty darn big. Anthony ordered one of them and I ordered one of them. I just hate it when we all try so hard to get it perfect and something stupid happens like that. I guess they are going to start building the addition to our store sometime this coming week. They have already posted signs that the RX drive thru will be shut down. So things are gonna be changing big time over the next few months. It's exciting but at the same time I know what a big pain in the ass it will be at times.
Not much else going on. So there are a few thoughts and I will write again sometime this week.
